“When I was in President Oak’s office he took advantage of me — in front of his son. I trusted him! And he abused his priesthood authority. Then he made me to give a blowjob to a stranger through the temple veil. I’ll never forget how his semen tasted as it leaked into my mouth.
I want to go home and think about what happened to me, but they’re keeping me here at the temple, and I don’t know what else they’re going to do to me.
The worst part is now that I’ve broken the law of chastity, I can’t stop thinking about sex. I keep replaying in my mind everything that happened in his office, and I can’t stop fantasizing about having sex with other people, his son, boys at church, even other girls.
Then he made me to give a blowjob to a stranger through the temple veil
I need to tell someone, but who? I can’t confess to my bishop — how could trust my priesthood leaders ever again?
I can’t talk to my parents about what President Oaks is coercing me to do. I don’t know how they’d react. And I’d be so humiliated. I could never look them in the eye again.
Would my friends understand? Has he violated them too? Or will they judge me? Will they tell everyone that I’m a little slut? What a nightmare.
I’m meeting Allison and Zoe at the temple today. They invited me to join them at the temple altar, but they refused to tell me what we’re doing there.
I want to tell them that President Oaks molested me, and ask them if they’ve had sex with him too, but I don’t know if I’ll dare.
What makes it even harder is that I think Zoe and Allison are really cute. I don’t want to do or say anything that will make them think less of me.
But maybe they can help. Maybe telling them will make them feel sorry for me. Maybe they’ll try to comfort me or help me find a way out of the temple.”
-from Sister Dolly Leigh’s diary